Pipe Dreams?

Lunch with a friend today. She always gets me fired up about issues that are important and gets me thinking about where my priorities are and where I want our family to be. Some days, it seems just like the wheels are spinning and I can't get ahead, regardless of what I do or how hard I try. It's certainly easy to get frustrated with our education system, with this country, with the global picture, but then in the next breath, you look at events like the upcoming Olympics and Hope resurfaces.

What do I want anyway?

Just another Monday

What a completely blah day. I had such high hopes for doing something fun and out of the house today and was shut down from the start. Friends didn't want to go on an outing. By the time they had decided to go out, E. had friends over and the rest of the day was just one missed opportunity after another. I am desperate to get out and do something even though I have more than enough things I should/could be doing here. A girl's just got to get out sometimes ya know?

Alas, not today. I'm sure my horoscope for the day would concur. I should check. Nope. Just a lot of love and romantic endeavors. I suppose that could be considered an adventure. But not quite what I was looking for.

Oh well.

*sigh*

01-04-2010

Today is the epitome of Pacific Northwest weather...windy, grey, rainy, cool. It's hard to say if the weather affects my moods or not. I'm having a pretty good day on the whole today mood-wise. We managed to get out the door and to school on time with a minimum of stress. Monkey likes his new alarm clock, so that was novel this morning. Volunteered a lot at the school, but still managed to take some time for me too. All in all, a productive day.

Started Weight Watchers (again!) on the weekend. I've managed to track everything I've eaten since then, which is key in my weight loss experiences. I also like the Saturday weigh in because it keeps me accountable all week. I bought myself a new Starbucks cold cup that is helping me get the water in too.

My house is beige. It's driving me nuts. So I'm thinking painting is in our future. I'm crazy to consider it, but I don't think I can stand this boring room for much longer.

We went geocaching on the weekend...what a fun sport that is! My kids likes it and it's an activity that we all can do. I'm hoping for more next weekend!

The Olympics are coming up soon. I need to decide whether we are going or not. It would be a fun time, but the PEOPLE>! I can;t even imagine the crowds.

January 1, 2010

There seems to be some common times of the year where I can find a spare moment to write. Everyone is currently asleep barring me. I'm waiting for my anti-inflam. to dissolve so I can go to bed.

A new year, and a new decade. This will be the decade I turn 40. Getting old now...

My little brother had a heart attack a couple of weeks ago. And yet, I still sit here 250 pounds. The best thing is, I'm not heavier than last year, I am lighter...and I will take that as a success!

This year needs to be a year of momentum and getting past inertia. I have some goals for this year that will get done. And as cliche as it sounds, I'm the only one standing in my way. Everything, everyone is set up to support me and encourage me. I just need to wrap my head around my issues and deal with them. I'm scared of something. I can't believe that I'm worthy of the attention. And I need to. I am.

Fresh start in the morning. Excited to see what the year will bring. Hopefully 365 days of love.